Nothing done. I really can't get down to work right after exam. So, today was my day-off with really lots of anime. I did my household chores, too.
My room is clean from literature books already and there are fewer Social science books.
I have got no one to go out with. But now I have a great anime-show to watch. I planned to watch it for some YEARS and here I go.
Overall, I found out that I am totally non-active, unsociable person. I lack willpower and self-appraise. I stopped talking to myself. I guess it was better when I did.
You know what is the difference between school and life? In real life you have no one to tell you where you made a mistake and no one to praise you for your results, no one to help you. Everything that I learned in school is fake. And it seems I have no reason to think about it and keep moving on. Except I'm not sure what to do.
Showing posts with label school. Show all posts
Showing posts with label school. Show all posts
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
My little...
My birthday passed and I had to prepare for History exam. Man, I was too lazy to prepare for it properly - I enjoyed two days after Maths exam doing nothing. And I saw a film on Sunday. Hm I realized that I really did not put effort in this. I should have learned WWII better. No, wait! I did.
In two days I got prepared for the History exam and I got "Good". Not "Excellent" but "Good". And that's crazy. I am very proud of myself.
That makes these results go into my little wins. But also into my little failures list (I have no real lists like that, though. So, that was literally). Hehe, useful experience.
In two days I got prepared for the History exam and I got "Good". Not "Excellent" but "Good". And that's crazy. I am very proud of myself.
That makes these results go into my little wins. But also into my little failures list (I have no real lists like that, though. So, that was literally). Hehe, useful experience.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Last week revision
I write here with a frequency of 1-week. Sorry =) I know I should write more.
Last week I made some progress. Of course, weekend was not so effective. So I had to get up at 6 in the morning on Monday to make a literature project. I had some material and I had to organize it - in an hour I had 10 of 20 required pages. And that was a good result. Well, I never worked on the project since that time.
Then there were English studies on Tuesday and I really made some progress there because I did the whole test in 1 and a half an hour. I made 30 mistakes, though. When others made 15-20. But it still is good and I am satisfied. Now my main goal is to revise all my mistakes that I made in tests in a year (yes, I have been writing them down) and refresh my memory on these points.
Well on Wednesday I had already been tired and I was a sad and I almost cried =) Wednesday is a sad day, after all. Ah and I did well on the test. Better than ever.
Tuesday had its Russian evening studies and it was tough because we wrote an essay. I screwed everything up and we had to read it in class and then give our works to Professor so that she will point out grammar mistakes. Oh my... Ah, and I borrowed from a friend a book to read - Murakami short stories collected in a book called "To Burn a Shed". I read two first stories - Firefly and To Burn a Shed. They were strage because they have a plot but it is thrilling the other way. It has some mystery. In his stories Murakami just tells stories about people. That is why I like his works. I hope, I'll have some time to read his novels in August. I've read the trilogy about the ship a year or so ago.
On Friday English again and as I did my test super-fast, I had to do other tests and translate about 20 sentences. I made a lot of mistakes there. Huh... I think I should work harder.
Saturday freaked me out because I realized that I had missed two history classes which were on 3d and 10th of May when nobody ever worked. And as we have the very last day at school next Saturday we asked history Professor to postpone the next classes and he said that he would never do this. I hate him now. He is a snob.
And now I do not want to go to this University again. But I know I should try. And I should try really hard to get there and to laugh at those snobs. Ha-ha-haaaa!
On Sunday I did lots of Russian tests. About 100 pages on the whole (with those tests I did on Friday and on Saturday).
So this week is the last week in school and then it is all over. Nah, we still have school exams after this, but it does not matter now.
By the way, today I skipped school. Well, I should have done that. You know, there are two ways every time. You can experience going to school the last Monday and you can experience skipping the last Monday. That is funny but... Heh, I really think there are two ways.
I went to see Narnia. It was a beautiful film with good special-effects work. And it was very sad as there was a dying civilization (which is always sad for me) and then they had to come back to the world where they came from and that is very very sad, too. I can imagine what they thought when they were going away from Narnia. But I didn't like that Aslan popped out so late and the film was full of pathos with those speeches and sword duels. Man, Peter became a conflict person. The whole film reminded me of J.R.R.T. in some ways.
So that is how I spent last week and today. I think it is necessary to analyze the work you have done in some period of time.
Good luck!
Last week I made some progress. Of course, weekend was not so effective. So I had to get up at 6 in the morning on Monday to make a literature project. I had some material and I had to organize it - in an hour I had 10 of 20 required pages. And that was a good result. Well, I never worked on the project since that time.
Then there were English studies on Tuesday and I really made some progress there because I did the whole test in 1 and a half an hour. I made 30 mistakes, though. When others made 15-20. But it still is good and I am satisfied. Now my main goal is to revise all my mistakes that I made in tests in a year (yes, I have been writing them down) and refresh my memory on these points.
Well on Wednesday I had already been tired and I was a sad and I almost cried =) Wednesday is a sad day, after all. Ah and I did well on the test. Better than ever.
Tuesday had its Russian evening studies and it was tough because we wrote an essay. I screwed everything up and we had to read it in class and then give our works to Professor so that she will point out grammar mistakes. Oh my... Ah, and I borrowed from a friend a book to read - Murakami short stories collected in a book called "To Burn a Shed". I read two first stories - Firefly and To Burn a Shed. They were strage because they have a plot but it is thrilling the other way. It has some mystery. In his stories Murakami just tells stories about people. That is why I like his works. I hope, I'll have some time to read his novels in August. I've read the trilogy about the ship a year or so ago.
On Friday English again and as I did my test super-fast, I had to do other tests and translate about 20 sentences. I made a lot of mistakes there. Huh... I think I should work harder.
Saturday freaked me out because I realized that I had missed two history classes which were on 3d and 10th of May when nobody ever worked. And as we have the very last day at school next Saturday we asked history Professor to postpone the next classes and he said that he would never do this. I hate him now. He is a snob.
And now I do not want to go to this University again. But I know I should try. And I should try really hard to get there and to laugh at those snobs. Ha-ha-haaaa!
On Sunday I did lots of Russian tests. About 100 pages on the whole (with those tests I did on Friday and on Saturday).
So this week is the last week in school and then it is all over. Nah, we still have school exams after this, but it does not matter now.
By the way, today I skipped school. Well, I should have done that. You know, there are two ways every time. You can experience going to school the last Monday and you can experience skipping the last Monday. That is funny but... Heh, I really think there are two ways.
I went to see Narnia. It was a beautiful film with good special-effects work. And it was very sad as there was a dying civilization (which is always sad for me) and then they had to come back to the world where they came from and that is very very sad, too. I can imagine what they thought when they were going away from Narnia. But I didn't like that Aslan popped out so late and the film was full of pathos with those speeches and sword duels. Man, Peter became a conflict person. The whole film reminded me of J.R.R.T. in some ways.
So that is how I spent last week and today. I think it is necessary to analyze the work you have done in some period of time.
Good luck!
Friday, April 11, 2008
Constitution, Essays and Madness
Days are passing by and I am not writing here. I'm sorry, really. When I think "oh, I know what I'm going to write here" I come home and feel so tired that I can not do anything or I'm too lazy for that.
So since last post I've read a constitution and improved my Russian tests a little - I made 39/40 and that is great, because before I made 38/40. Yeah, I should work harder on my essays.
Essays are very tricky. Sometimes you know what to write, sometimes you don't know what to write and the other time you have too much thoughts so you mess up your essay. And I do not like the part where you have to point the problem raised in a text and write about author's opinion.
Today I had a depression after school. I have a friend, who has made a huge progress lately and all the teachers keep telling her how great she is and that many tried but did not succeed and I am with her almost all the time and I hate listening to the teachers because this is me who is a failure here. And I do not want to be envious as it will lead to the hatred for my friend or for myself and I know what choice I will make in this situation. And I do not want to go back to this time from where I have come not so long before. I mean the Great Depression of the Youth. Argh.
I am going mad. I know that this is quite a personal information, but I suppose I will only frighten those who are around me if I tell them about this. I had hallucinations and I have some problems with breathing (not so usually, but still...). Oh, and I'm talking to myself and sometimes I find myself laughing at my other self jokes. What do you call this? Split personality?
Oh, yes, I have frequent sharp headache. But it does not last long.
And today I colored my nails with different green colors only on one hand (left). I don't know why. I just felt very sad. So all the way to my evening studies I kept hiding my hand. I was embarrassed.
And then I drank (or ate) a cup of coffee with ice-cream in it. It was good but still I do no like hot beverages and bitterness of coffee. However I liked it. It was fun.
So since last post I've read a constitution and improved my Russian tests a little - I made 39/40 and that is great, because before I made 38/40. Yeah, I should work harder on my essays.
Essays are very tricky. Sometimes you know what to write, sometimes you don't know what to write and the other time you have too much thoughts so you mess up your essay. And I do not like the part where you have to point the problem raised in a text and write about author's opinion.
Today I had a depression after school. I have a friend, who has made a huge progress lately and all the teachers keep telling her how great she is and that many tried but did not succeed and I am with her almost all the time and I hate listening to the teachers because this is me who is a failure here. And I do not want to be envious as it will lead to the hatred for my friend or for myself and I know what choice I will make in this situation. And I do not want to go back to this time from where I have come not so long before. I mean the Great Depression of the Youth. Argh.
I am going mad. I know that this is quite a personal information, but I suppose I will only frighten those who are around me if I tell them about this. I had hallucinations and I have some problems with breathing (not so usually, but still...). Oh, and I'm talking to myself and sometimes I find myself laughing at my other self jokes. What do you call this? Split personality?
Oh, yes, I have frequent sharp headache. But it does not last long.
And today I colored my nails with different green colors only on one hand (left). I don't know why. I just felt very sad. So all the way to my evening studies I kept hiding my hand. I was embarrassed.
And then I drank (or ate) a cup of coffee with ice-cream in it. It was good but still I do no like hot beverages and bitterness of coffee. However I liked it. It was fun.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
My Day
Well, today I skipped school. It is Thursday, after all. And by Thursday all my tiredness and lack of sleep shows up. So, I slept till 11 a.m.
Then I did some physical exercises just to be sure my body is still moving.
My breakfast was really heavy - I eat a lot these days, don't know why, may be that's my stress or all that strength that I put in my studies requires more food (doubtful).
While eating I watched a few episodes of Scrubs, which was great fun.
So, after all that I thought about my studies. Today I had Russian. Hell, we learn it as if we are students of some linguistic/philology university already. But all we will have to "overcome" is a test. But, well, these Russian studies are informative.
Funny thing - when I was in the underground listening to my playlist and watching people around me that have just come to my mind - I live among people and I love it. This woman with red tights, a man with a book in a pink cover, a blond girl with big headphones on, a guy with lovely eyes - this all makes difference between us. I mean this is great to live among different people and have a chance to meet them, some - by chance, for a second, and others - by chance, too, to spend some time with and to share some thoughts and feelings. Hell, I love it. The world is full of joy and mystery after all. And yes, I have to use "hell" less often, I suppose.
So, I ate two times this day and drank a cup of chocolate from a little packet with another sweety mushroom with condensed milk (in Russian there is a special term for this - "sguschenka" =)). I think I should reduce my daily sweets consumption x)
That is how my day usually goes - School/sleep, then doing some homework for evening studies and eve studies themselves (for 2 hours +2 hours for road) then supper and here I am - at my computer, thinking about what I should do now.
*Going to look through recent photos and maybe update dA...
Then I did some physical exercises just to be sure my body is still moving.
My breakfast was really heavy - I eat a lot these days, don't know why, may be that's my stress or all that strength that I put in my studies requires more food (doubtful).
While eating I watched a few episodes of Scrubs, which was great fun.
So, after all that I thought about my studies. Today I had Russian. Hell, we learn it as if we are students of some linguistic/philology university already. But all we will have to "overcome" is a test. But, well, these Russian studies are informative.
Funny thing - when I was in the underground listening to my playlist and watching people around me that have just come to my mind - I live among people and I love it. This woman with red tights, a man with a book in a pink cover, a blond girl with big headphones on, a guy with lovely eyes - this all makes difference between us. I mean this is great to live among different people and have a chance to meet them, some - by chance, for a second, and others - by chance, too, to spend some time with and to share some thoughts and feelings. Hell, I love it. The world is full of joy and mystery after all. And yes, I have to use "hell" less often, I suppose.
So, I ate two times this day and drank a cup of chocolate from a little packet with another sweety mushroom with condensed milk (in Russian there is a special term for this - "sguschenka" =)). I think I should reduce my daily sweets consumption x)
That is how my day usually goes - School/sleep, then doing some homework for evening studies and eve studies themselves (for 2 hours +2 hours for road) then supper and here I am - at my computer, thinking about what I should do now.
*Going to look through recent photos and maybe update dA...
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