My Guraipu Mentos

I am watching Scrubs and eating grape mentos (or "Gu-ra-i-pu" mentos because it is from Japan, I don't know why, though).
And you know what was on my mind all this time? Here:
What is the worst thing ever? It is thinking: "I know I could..."

So, there was the 4th May a week before. I had been studying for three days then and I wrote this Law work in the University. Well, I know that I wrote wrong answers for some questions and I didn't have enough time for a few last tasks. But that was a good experience for me to take the first serious thing and to prepare for it. I thought I would be preparing for this for 2 months (March-April) but to be honest I really worked for only 3-4 hours a day for 4 days. That is definitely not good, but it somehow worked. And then the problem popped up. I have been working hard to get prepared for this Law competition and after all this was over I did not know what to do next. I mean I knew that I had a lot of things to be done but I could not begin. Somebody told me to wait and rest for a few days. And looking back I realize I did not do anything since this time.
Ah, well, I saw an Iron Man film. It was good. I liked it the most of all Marvell movies so far because Iron Man is a man and not circumstances but he himself made everything with his hands and brains. And this is kind of inspiring.
And now I think of finding a man in real life who was kind of no-one and became a successful person. Do you know any? By the way, I feel sad because there are no comments on my posts. Tell me I am not alone =)

Giving up something precious

At the end of February I made a decision to give up watching Japanese animation or anime.
I'd been watching it for 2 years and I should say that it was a huge part of my life. Anime made my character with movies and books and life, of course. Anime gave me many thoughts and emotions, ideas and feelings. But nonetheless anime took a lot of time. So I decided to reduce the time that goes for non-preparing for exams. And I gave up watching anime. Completely.
It is hell. I never smoke so I never gave up anything. I have just been doing what I wanted all my life.
Now I frequently think that this time that I had been spending on watching anime is now going nowhere (or for thoughts like "I want to watch anime" or "What seasons are coming out this week?"). Well, my other part tells me that it's not true and that I'm spending more time for my studies. I do not know for sure...
For few first weeks I changed anime to Scrubs. And I saw 24 episodes so far. This makes one season. I suppose I watched about 3 anime seasons in a month (on average) these past years.
I feel desperate. I'm in low spirits. I want to watch anime. Badly. Damn exams.
But I know it is all for greater good.
So I just must not think about it.

My Running Home

Oh, yes, of course I'm watching Scrubs and that's where I get all these post titles. I have given up watching my favorite cartoons - Japanese animation - you know what I mean, and now I watch Scrubs like I've nothing else to do. Learn, sweety, learn!
Arghm. So, this afternoon I had English evening studies. I had never expected that he would come, but he was there. The greatest person himself, a guy who has been skipping his other studies for 6 months already, he came. And that was fun, he joked every time I was bored, so these 2 hours were like... like one hour really.
And I told him to wait for me for we go home together. It was Hell. I mean, I had to run. My legs hurt. And we went to MacDonald's but he ate like he was in such a hurry. I got an ice cream, by the way, with chocolate and caramel, just love it. And I was so nervous, I could hardly talk. So, we hardly talked...
Though, that was a wonderful experience. I felt my mind to be almost blind with excitement, where did my cynicism go? Or can it be love? Hell, no. But I admit that he is the person whom I really admire. He just amazes me. Last time I saw him on English, he was late for 1.40 hours. Great